Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Monday, January 28, 2013
Restu
Bila dah cuti beberapa hari and siap balik ke-el (KL), mula mata tak boleh nak tido.. esok kerja.. huwaaaaa! apa lah lagi agak nya tuan pengarah nak suruh buat, takkan nak mengikir lagi, kang dimension lari lagi teruk.. harap2 esok dah ada official schedule for our 9 months training. 9 months babe, if you are pregnant by the day 1 of training, dpt la hasil baby training org kata. hehe. ok enough.
Actually i dont want to talk about work and blabla-boring, but something that really catch my heart to the deepest.
Ini semua salah cerita kat tv1 tadi. TV1? ehee.. terlayan sebab ada Beto Kusyairi. ok sorry, saya peminat dia! I admit. He has the talent, even muka jawa habis (bak kata my housemate), it doesn't matter. Tak perlu jual muka hensem kalau lakonan hamprak kan?
Back to the story, aku tgk Selagi Cinta Berzikir tadi. The stroryline really really reminds me about me, about him. hmmmm... Cerita cinta antara dua darjat, dan cinta yang tak direstui. Its hard and hurt. But I learn something from the story.
What's about me and about him?
Perlu ke saya nak cerita ya? hehe.. I don't think i need la, sebab melibatkan banyak pihak. Just roughly the storyline really relates dgn my experience. Cuma nya aku takde lah sampai kahwin lari ke Golok. hehe. and aku takde lah sekuat Nazira and Fazli dalam cerita tu. Syukur alhamdulillah, still waras lagi dan tak sedegil mcm diorang.
The story shows the reality of consequences when you disobey or derhaka dgn ibu bapa sendiri hanya kerana Cinta. Memang kalau dah cinta, semua nya sanggup kau redah. But remember, Allah will punish you anytime. If not now, insyaALLAH in the hereafter. Cuma nya kalau kau bertaubat, back to Him how the situation.
Disebabkan ikutkan hati dan tak peduli kata mak ayah, kahwin pun takde restu, cerita tu tunjuk betapa susah nya hidup walau kau dpt cinta sejati tu. Adakah ia berbaloi? Ape yg aku faham, all the pain are the punishment for diri sendiri sebenarnya. Pengajaran from cerita tu memang sgt dlm makna nye.. and when it relates back to my story, thats what actually I'm doing and thinking is the best for semua orang.
Yeap, melepaskan cinta tak restu is such a huge pain for me. I'm not a coward, tak mempertahankan hati sendiri.. tapi aku tak nak benda2 mcm nk berlaku. Maybe ada org kata or ada reality story yang tak sama dgn pengakhiran cerita Selagi Cinta Berzikir tu.. but then, how many percent will survive with happily ever after? kalau pun survive and family boleh terima, tak mustahil perkara yang sama boleh berlaku pula kat your next generation kan?
Afterall, what goes around, comes around. Dan tuhan Maha Mengetahui, kat mana kau nak menyorok pun pasti the same situation akan berlaku. Thus, biarlah kita mengalah demi sesuatu yang hanya sikit kita korban kan, kasih ibu bapa kat mana lagi kita nak dapat? takkan nak korban kan jugak? maaf, saya tak sanggup.
Lagipun, ada org kata kalau dah jodoh, tak ke mana kan? hahah.. ayat2 cliche.. eh! bukan.. ini ayat penyedap hati je.Well, biar lah.. Alhamdulillah, aku pun dah boleh let go kisah tu dan move on (sampai move ke Kuantan ni! hehe), walaupun setengah meroyan jugak hidup haritu. Kita serahkan saje lah kepada Yang Maha Mengetahui dan Mengasihani, kita cuma merancang, Dia juga lah yan menentukan.
Waallahua'lam.
Actually i dont want to talk about work and blabla-boring, but something that really catch my heart to the deepest.
Ini semua salah cerita kat tv1 tadi. TV1? ehee.. terlayan sebab ada Beto Kusyairi. ok sorry, saya peminat dia! I admit. He has the talent, even muka jawa habis (bak kata my housemate), it doesn't matter. Tak perlu jual muka hensem kalau lakonan hamprak kan?
Back to the story, aku tgk Selagi Cinta Berzikir tadi. The stroryline really really reminds me about me, about him. hmmmm... Cerita cinta antara dua darjat, dan cinta yang tak direstui. Its hard and hurt. But I learn something from the story.
What's about me and about him?
Perlu ke saya nak cerita ya? hehe.. I don't think i need la, sebab melibatkan banyak pihak. Just roughly the storyline really relates dgn my experience. Cuma nya aku takde lah sampai kahwin lari ke Golok. hehe. and aku takde lah sekuat Nazira and Fazli dalam cerita tu. Syukur alhamdulillah, still waras lagi dan tak sedegil mcm diorang.
The story shows the reality of consequences when you disobey or derhaka dgn ibu bapa sendiri hanya kerana Cinta. Memang kalau dah cinta, semua nya sanggup kau redah. But remember, Allah will punish you anytime. If not now, insyaALLAH in the hereafter. Cuma nya kalau kau bertaubat, back to Him how the situation.
Disebabkan ikutkan hati dan tak peduli kata mak ayah, kahwin pun takde restu, cerita tu tunjuk betapa susah nya hidup walau kau dpt cinta sejati tu. Adakah ia berbaloi? Ape yg aku faham, all the pain are the punishment for diri sendiri sebenarnya. Pengajaran from cerita tu memang sgt dlm makna nye.. and when it relates back to my story, thats what actually I'm doing and thinking is the best for semua orang.
Yeap, melepaskan cinta tak restu is such a huge pain for me. I'm not a coward, tak mempertahankan hati sendiri.. tapi aku tak nak benda2 mcm nk berlaku. Maybe ada org kata or ada reality story yang tak sama dgn pengakhiran cerita Selagi Cinta Berzikir tu.. but then, how many percent will survive with happily ever after? kalau pun survive and family boleh terima, tak mustahil perkara yang sama boleh berlaku pula kat your next generation kan?
Afterall, what goes around, comes around. Dan tuhan Maha Mengetahui, kat mana kau nak menyorok pun pasti the same situation akan berlaku. Thus, biarlah kita mengalah demi sesuatu yang hanya sikit kita korban kan, kasih ibu bapa kat mana lagi kita nak dapat? takkan nak korban kan jugak? maaf, saya tak sanggup.
Lagipun, ada org kata kalau dah jodoh, tak ke mana kan? hahah.. ayat2 cliche.. eh! bukan.. ini ayat penyedap hati je.Well, biar lah.. Alhamdulillah, aku pun dah boleh let go kisah tu dan move on (sampai move ke Kuantan ni! hehe), walaupun setengah meroyan jugak hidup haritu. Kita serahkan saje lah kepada Yang Maha Mengetahui dan Mengasihani, kita cuma merancang, Dia juga lah yan menentukan.
Waallahua'lam.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Menukar Kerja - 2013
Ini selalu nya normal bila saye terbaca other people's blog, mood to write something will come out from nowhere. Haha. And guess who's blog I was reading for past half an hour? It's Maria Elena's blog, peliks.blogspot.com. Well, enough say.. she is trending now! I know her from the beginning of blogging era which were from past several years back. Masa tu, aku pon sibuk ber-blogging. Tapi tak sekental dia, so jangan harap la nak setanding kan. hihi. Honestly, my true feeling said that she has her own style, tak plastik or stereotype kind of girl. Maybe sbb tu dia menjadi dia sekarang ni kan. Well, congrates (pedulik la congratz ke congrates ke, lols) for your wedding, it is so nice sister!
Here I come... write something and wishing that this time post will be posted successfully. Honestly, aku dah tulis about 2 to 3 posts, but not successfully being posted. Semua jadi draft akibat bila second paragraph je jadi hamprak.. takde idea.. sedih kan.. tapi bila baca other's writing, mula la mencurah-curah words nak keluar dgn kelam kabut nya!
Haha. Itu perkara biase saya sebagai seorang Hamizah. (peace)
Lack of reading mungkin jugak menyumbang kepada ketandusan skills menulis. haha.. since when tulis blog memerlukan skills? perlu ke? I don't think so, sbb tulis blog is sooooooo spontaneous, kalau blog yang personal la, kalau yang ke arah ilmiah bagai-bagai tu, yeap! harus la ada kan. So, don't scope your mind into that way, let's make this openly and rilekss...
So guys... here is my story yang memang dah lama nak share... :)
Finally, after some years of nagging myself bila nak tukar kerja.. bila nak tukar kerja.. alhamdulillah! with all the prayers, efforts and 'hardwork', finally I got a chance to change my work, and with 360 degree of complete rotation I also change my profession, from an Engineer to Lecturer now! well... still can't believe it is happening... how it's happened?
I was an Engineer, to specific, a Design Engineer. ehee.. I'm missing the job title and the job scope too.. seriously. But life must go on (cliche).. when the feeling of regrets or unease in my heart, I will tenang kan dgn this quote.. "You choose.. do it well.." thanks to my Physics Lecturer back on my matriculation time, dia yang sebut this quote which quoted from somebody, sorry can't remember, the sentence pun tak complete actually, but I simplified itu je lah...
I hold the sentence.. yah.. dulu masa accept keje as Engineer pun, I hold the sentence walaupun after 2 months kerja, I hate the job sooooo damnnnn much! haha... but Alhamdulillah, I still winning the advance allowance for quite long time, a year kot... Advance allowance is for those yang excellent and with the recommendation from bosses. ihiks! so, what I mean is walaupun aku tak suka kerja-kerja aku masa kat company lama dulu, tp aku manage to do it well, because I hold the sentence, " You choose.. do it well.." kau yang pilih the job dulu, bukan ada sape-sape yang paksa, so please buat yang terbaik walau apa keadaan pun. Believe me it can lessen your stress towards your hated jobs. hehe. (tapi sometimes, tak sampai gak niat murni aku nak buat yang terbaik, kantoi di mana-mana tu perkara biasa kan? :p)
Then why I quit while I can do so best?
Oh! still remember I said that from 2nd months of working day I started to hate the job? ehee.. yah, I also experienced the dillema, the stress, the bla-bla unhappy story through out my day at previous company, for me, if kita tak suka, just don't susah kan org lain, you find others... for me lagi.. kalau memang tak boleh blah dgn kerja yang kita tgh buat, just buat jugak sebaik mungkin but at the same time, pergi cari apa yang kita nak.. just don't sit there and nag at yourself. Boleh tua mcm tu je oi.. I nagged to myself too actually, and sigh and tired of what is happening to myself jugak dulu.. haha.. sebab tak dapat apa yang aku nak lagi masa tu, aku takde lah bagus sgt sampai terima seadaanya semua perkara, maki diri sendiri sebab terima job yang aku tak suka tu memang byk kali! tp nak buat macam mana? saya yang at the beginning TERIMA kerja tu, so just try your best je la kan...
Berkat doa mak ayah, usaha.. Alhamdulillah.. dapat juga tukar kerja in this really fine year 2013! memang tak percaya, tp ini lah apa yang saya nak for so many years, huhu. Being a Lecturer? hehe.. walaupun aku mencik kerja lama, tp ada jugak suka-sayang-rindu nya, jadi Engineer babe, sape tak rase gempak kan? haha. (tp trust me, aku engineer hamprakk.. sbb I was not direct related dgn engineering, byk documentation saje.. see.. can imagine my stressfulness? haha). Tapi buat apa title tp kalau kau tak happy kan? so pilih lah apa yang kau suka dan lebihkan usaha terhadapnya.
Memang nak tukar kerja tak senang kan kan kan? (kan kepada yang mencuba2 tp tak dpt2) well, aku pun mcm you olls gak, kalau tak takkan aku amek sampai 2 year and half stucked in the job yang aku tak suka kan, huhu.. and ini lah yang dinamakan rezki, tuhan yang tetapkan, kun fayakun... kita hamba banyak kan berdoa dan bergantung harap lah pada Dia yang dalam masa yang sama, berusaha! bkn sit there and nagging. NO.. and no ok...
So I'm a Lecturer now?
Ok nak muntah, sbb masih belum layak hokeii nak dipanggil itu. huhu. Seriously, bila masuk dunia academic semua ni, aku teramat lahh kecik mcm kuman merasakan diri ini. I have nothing. Zero. I wasn't an excellent graduate, not a good student and not an ulat buku, bukan! huhu. Then, masa my first day registered at the College, aku mcm hoi.. betul ke ni? how you can teach others while you yourself is zero? huu.. scared to death. (bunyi cengkerikk)
hmmmmm... honestly, takut gila wei.. kalau ada bebudak dtg tanya Algebra ke kang, apa aku nak jawap? hah! kang tanya composition of stainless steel? how to make mould? apa tu metallic material? (I'm shrinking...) >,<
Haha..again thanks to my physic's lecturer who gave the quote.. so I will try to do my best! because I choose the job, yah! I remind myself every morning just to be motivated. Iyeahhh.. kita semua boleh jadi apa pun, sebab kita yang pilih.. and behind the scene pun, everything happen must be a reason kan? so, enjoy yourself and don't be so stress when it comes to your job. Kerja-kerja ni duniawi je.. eh.. ok tak, kerja is our amanah, kita buat betul, kita untung dunia dan akhirat.
Waallahua'lam.
Here I come... write something and wishing that this time post will be posted successfully. Honestly, aku dah tulis about 2 to 3 posts, but not successfully being posted. Semua jadi draft akibat bila second paragraph je jadi hamprak.. takde idea.. sedih kan.. tapi bila baca other's writing, mula la mencurah-curah words nak keluar dgn kelam kabut nya!
Haha. Itu perkara biase saya sebagai seorang Hamizah. (peace)
Lack of reading mungkin jugak menyumbang kepada ketandusan skills menulis. haha.. since when tulis blog memerlukan skills? perlu ke? I don't think so, sbb tulis blog is sooooooo spontaneous, kalau blog yang personal la, kalau yang ke arah ilmiah bagai-bagai tu, yeap! harus la ada kan. So, don't scope your mind into that way, let's make this openly and rilekss...
So guys... here is my story yang memang dah lama nak share... :)
Finally, after some years of nagging myself bila nak tukar kerja.. bila nak tukar kerja.. alhamdulillah! with all the prayers, efforts and 'hardwork', finally I got a chance to change my work, and with 360 degree of complete rotation I also change my profession, from an Engineer to Lecturer now! well... still can't believe it is happening... how it's happened?
I was an Engineer, to specific, a Design Engineer. ehee.. I'm missing the job title and the job scope too.. seriously. But life must go on (cliche).. when the feeling of regrets or unease in my heart, I will tenang kan dgn this quote.. "You choose.. do it well.." thanks to my Physics Lecturer back on my matriculation time, dia yang sebut this quote which quoted from somebody, sorry can't remember, the sentence pun tak complete actually, but I simplified itu je lah...
I hold the sentence.. yah.. dulu masa accept keje as Engineer pun, I hold the sentence walaupun after 2 months kerja, I hate the job sooooo damnnnn much! haha... but Alhamdulillah, I still winning the advance allowance for quite long time, a year kot... Advance allowance is for those yang excellent and with the recommendation from bosses. ihiks! so, what I mean is walaupun aku tak suka kerja-kerja aku masa kat company lama dulu, tp aku manage to do it well, because I hold the sentence, " You choose.. do it well.." kau yang pilih the job dulu, bukan ada sape-sape yang paksa, so please buat yang terbaik walau apa keadaan pun. Believe me it can lessen your stress towards your hated jobs. hehe. (tapi sometimes, tak sampai gak niat murni aku nak buat yang terbaik, kantoi di mana-mana tu perkara biasa kan? :p)
Then why I quit while I can do so best?
Oh! still remember I said that from 2nd months of working day I started to hate the job? ehee.. yah, I also experienced the dillema, the stress, the bla-bla unhappy story through out my day at previous company, for me, if kita tak suka, just don't susah kan org lain, you find others... for me lagi.. kalau memang tak boleh blah dgn kerja yang kita tgh buat, just buat jugak sebaik mungkin but at the same time, pergi cari apa yang kita nak.. just don't sit there and nag at yourself. Boleh tua mcm tu je oi.. I nagged to myself too actually, and sigh and tired of what is happening to myself jugak dulu.. haha.. sebab tak dapat apa yang aku nak lagi masa tu, aku takde lah bagus sgt sampai terima seadaanya semua perkara, maki diri sendiri sebab terima job yang aku tak suka tu memang byk kali! tp nak buat macam mana? saya yang at the beginning TERIMA kerja tu, so just try your best je la kan...
Berkat doa mak ayah, usaha.. Alhamdulillah.. dapat juga tukar kerja in this really fine year 2013! memang tak percaya, tp ini lah apa yang saya nak for so many years, huhu. Being a Lecturer? hehe.. walaupun aku mencik kerja lama, tp ada jugak suka-sayang-rindu nya, jadi Engineer babe, sape tak rase gempak kan? haha. (tp trust me, aku engineer hamprakk.. sbb I was not direct related dgn engineering, byk documentation saje.. see.. can imagine my stressfulness? haha). Tapi buat apa title tp kalau kau tak happy kan? so pilih lah apa yang kau suka dan lebihkan usaha terhadapnya.
Memang nak tukar kerja tak senang kan kan kan? (kan kepada yang mencuba2 tp tak dpt2) well, aku pun mcm you olls gak, kalau tak takkan aku amek sampai 2 year and half stucked in the job yang aku tak suka kan, huhu.. and ini lah yang dinamakan rezki, tuhan yang tetapkan, kun fayakun... kita hamba banyak kan berdoa dan bergantung harap lah pada Dia yang dalam masa yang sama, berusaha! bkn sit there and nagging. NO.. and no ok...
So I'm a Lecturer now?
Ok nak muntah, sbb masih belum layak hokeii nak dipanggil itu. huhu. Seriously, bila masuk dunia academic semua ni, aku teramat lahh kecik mcm kuman merasakan diri ini. I have nothing. Zero. I wasn't an excellent graduate, not a good student and not an ulat buku, bukan! huhu. Then, masa my first day registered at the College, aku mcm hoi.. betul ke ni? how you can teach others while you yourself is zero? huu.. scared to death. (bunyi cengkerikk)
hmmmmm... honestly, takut gila wei.. kalau ada bebudak dtg tanya Algebra ke kang, apa aku nak jawap? hah! kang tanya composition of stainless steel? how to make mould? apa tu metallic material? (I'm shrinking...) >,<
Haha..again thanks to my physic's lecturer who gave the quote.. so I will try to do my best! because I choose the job, yah! I remind myself every morning just to be motivated. Iyeahhh.. kita semua boleh jadi apa pun, sebab kita yang pilih.. and behind the scene pun, everything happen must be a reason kan? so, enjoy yourself and don't be so stress when it comes to your job. Kerja-kerja ni duniawi je.. eh.. ok tak, kerja is our amanah, kita buat betul, kita untung dunia dan akhirat.
Waallahua'lam.
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