Going through the break up session...
Well, I must say it was so painful, until you didn't feel anything because you know what you hope is totally damaged into pieces. I was so ready, took a week plus plus to think about it,.. influenced by surrounding that never gave me the support makes me so dissapointed and heartless. I was in pain during that time. I hurt myself for several times, and it gets immune to my heart in the end. I lost my feeling.
Honestly, the love is still there. I love him. But I can't do anything. Helpless, yeah same with a little child that lost her mother. I'm losing my love. I passed it to the Most Beloved, He knows the best.
Is it what we call as no fate being together? not written in the Loh Mahfuz as our spouse? Nobody knows the answer except Him. I just don't believe if people around me says "takde jodoh kot", hey, are you a God who knows about fate better? No right, then just shut up and pray for my best, it is much appreciated.
I must say I'm a coward person. Love someone but can't protect him from the disagree group. Maybe you don't understand until you are in my shoe.
Here's the thing, I'm a second last child, a girl with a degree, I'm an engineer.. from a bit success family, my father a pensioner lecturer, and who can accept that her beloved daugther falls in love with a non-exec admin assistant? You answer yourself.
I have my own perspective, but the thing I see might not as same as what other people see.
Sorry, should continue this later... time to sleep...